Faith: fasting & prayer story

Hey,

Today’s post is about to be a little different to the normal ones…well kinda. I’m about to share my first proper fasting experience and what that entailed for me personally. At the end of last year, I was doing a fast & prayer session every Tuesday and Thursday, for 3 months straight. That’s right I actually stuck to the days and prospered hahah. Although the fasting part was hard (with going to work and that), I knew that I needed to go through this experience with God, to find my own faith and realign some things that I’ve been struggling with. I was quite hesitant at first on posting this as I wasn’t sure on how you (my readers) would take it. However, if there’s anything that I’ve learnt from Andre Spence, its that most of my happiness comes from the one above and I should learn to openly express this more. So here we are. I’m expressing my faith.

I think its best to start from the beginning and tell you how the fast & prayer actually went on. So let’s break it down. As I said, Tuesdays and Thursdays were my allocated days where I would not eat from 6am-6pm. During these hours, I limited myself to only drinking water and one cup of sugarless tea (it was winter and I needed that pick me up from somewhere). I would also do an opening prayer when I woke up, a prayer in between the day and a closing prayer couple of mins before 6pm. The closing prayer would then be followed by me having my dinner or a snack whilst making my food. I’d be lying if I said that the last 30 mins weren’t the longest 30 mins of my life on some days haha.

You may be wondering why I decided to take part in the fasting, with my church. Well, I knew that something inside of me was telling me to do it (for starters) and I personally felt ready to further engage with my faith in Christ. If that meant trying to fast 2 days every week for a whole 3 months – so be it! I wanted to grow closer to God and be in control of my faith, taking them steps without my mum telling me to go church or remind me to pray. I wanted it for me. To help me with the prayers, I completed mini devotionals alongside, as I sometimes find it hard to structure my prayers properly. I just find worship easier than sitting down praying. Anyone else can relate or is it just me?

Anyhow. Back to the topic in hand. I didn’t realise the full extent of what my prayers were actually doing. As in how all these prayers I was building up every day were going to cause God to work in me. It wasn’t revealed to me till 20th December 2018, when I was doing my final closing prayer for the fast & prayer segment. Whilst I was praying, I started to remember how in the past when I was sleeping, I’d suddenly forget how to breathe and I’d be lying in bed with my eyes open trying to catch my breath back. I never told anyone this and it used to be like a frequent thing that happened. During my prayers, I never actually voiced this out but I think God knew that I didn’t deserve to suffer from it no longer. It then hit me that since I started fasting, I haven’t had an episode of it and it shook me. So I stopped at the topic I was praying on and started to thank Him. There were also other things that God revealed to me, such as learning how to love (others and myself), blocking out negativity, finding peace and some other personal things.

I can truly say that it was the most intense fasting & prayer that I’ve ever done. It definitely opened up my relationship with God and helped my faith grow. Ever since then, I’ve been actively surrounding myself with the word of God and listening to more gospel too, it doesn’t have to be every day grime music hahah.

I know that everyone goes through their journey of faith differently and some others find it quicker than others. I’m just happy to be sharing a part of my testimony and life in Christ with everyone. Hope you enjoyed today’s read and I’ll catch you on  my next blog post.

Happy Sunday everyone!

Yours Truly,

Melanin Talks x

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